A New Year, A New Dedication.

I’ve never really been a part of the “resolution revolution”.  Sure, once in a while I come across a great new resolve that I’m ready to put into permanent place, but on the whole I have never made a point of doing it.  I think it’s a waste of time to think a certain day will motivate me.  The sad truth is that I am still searching for what truly motivates me.

Before you determine that I am a complete slug, I must tell you that I DO make lasting and permanent changes in my life and I DO find inspiration and motivation in life.  I just don’t find it in a day.  Quite honestly, I tend to find it in quiet moments of failure.  In moments when my failings are very clear to see and the results of continuing to walk in them are no longer acceptable.

As I looked back over my 2008 I realized that the only advancement I had made in my writing was to write a review for a book that a friend wrote and attend a conference where another writer aquaintance found an agent and advancement for her novel.  I did nothing except visit and make one feeble pitch for my book that caused the editor’s eyes to glass over and move on to the next writer at the table.

Failure.

Since then I have done the easy thing of immersing myself into my home and family.  We all know how completely that can consume your life.  Dishes, laundry, dusting, sweeping, vacuuming, cooking, shopping, snuggle time with kids, snuggle time with hubby, homework, Dr. appointments, coffee with friends, and the list could go on and on.  It’s so easy to let that all get in the way if you don’t have two very important things: determination and discipline.

For the first time I am allowing myself to make a resolution that may fail, but is so desperately needed.  I am resolving to grow in my discipline of writing and to keep up my determination!  I am not going to let another year pass without my name in a published work – and each year the published work needs to be bigger and better – at least in it’s quality.

This blog is my first step.  I’m not sure just what I want to do with it, but I am determined that “do with it” I will.  I will think, search, whatever I need to until I find what I want.

Hey, if I can resolve to never take a load of laundry out of the dryer without folding it first and keep that resolution for years – I think I can keep the resolve to be determined and grow in discipline … just don’t ask me to put those folded clothes away!!

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~ by trubyjohnsonwrites on 01/01/2009.

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